After a couple hours of grieving I've finally gained back enough of my composure to explain my current situation. I mentioned a family emergency because I treat my wolves at my sanctuary like my family and was also in an unstable state mental wise so I apologize for misleading you all. Texas, an elder male wolf at our sanctuary shares a rare bond with me that not many of the others do because of his sweet and gentle personality. I do not know his story before he was turned over to our care but unfortunately, today is the day I finally close his novel. Last night at around 4:45 P.M. (estimated time) Texas passed away peacefully in his sleep from old age and though I understand thats how life is, it still really fucking hurts. As for the conference, ill force myself to show up but I probably won't speak. Im still extremely upset and am sort of dropping tears on my keyboard as I type this out. I'm not going on Hiatus but will be avoiding Moderator duties for the next two days or so to ensure my unstable emotions do not cloud my judgement. I appreciate all the kind words said but this is a battle I must fight alone and do apologize for any complications this may cause. I spent my entire 4 year career so far knowing and bonding with Texas and sadly crying about it won't bring him back. As far as responses go, I won't tolerate any negative or questionable comments to be posted here about the situation as I have a few in mind who would do so just to upset me. I again thank you all for the friendly interactions you all ave given me and will be back to working condition soon.
Very sorry to hear that, but it sounds like quite a special bond you've got with your wolves. Take the time as necessary to collect yourself, and I'm sure the community will still be here to support you when you're ready
UPDATE: After some time to recover especially after the incident on the forums, I am back and ready to return to my Moderation duties. Thank you to everyone who gave support and especially to the staff who dealt with the problem swiftly and with accuracy. Texas will always be in my heart and he is now in a better place where he can watch over me at all times.
